stolen from karlita

The Friday Five
1. What is your most prized material possession?
umm...this is hard...possibly the onyx earrings that my mom gave me that she refused to give back to my grandmother after my parents got divorced.

2. What item, that you currently own, have you had the longest? well, it's not at my house right now, but my stuffed animal bunny rabbit that i got when i was born...'rabee'

3. Are you a packrat? yes indeed. sometimes i worry about it because my mean bipolar grandmother was as well and i don't want to turn into her.

4. Do you prefer a spic-and-span clean house? Or is some clutter necessary to avoid the appearance of a museum? well,i would like it to be clean, but not sterile. but it's not getting clean all by itself.

5. Do the rooms in your house have a theme? Or is it a mixture of knick-knacks here and there? pretty much all of the knick knacks are spooky toys of one kind or another, but the decor of my house is nothing right now since i haven't had the money to paint and decorate in the style to which i would like to become accustomed!

my day

so, i went to work today and had one client added on. and jessica's couples massage rescheduled with me tomorrow. so i have that and another massage tomorrow. but i don't want to go!!!
blah. i don't really want to have a job, i don't think. i want some other way to earn an income. but i do think i'd be fine if i had my own store with bellwitch and also had time to write on my own. and i would also enjoy giving massages to my friends but not having to cultivate a clientele. because i'm not good at that.
anyway, i was angry at work today....going to work makes me unhappy and frustrated and angry. and that really sucks.
anyway, i am hoping that it will push me into doing something that i really want to do because i don't want to be unhappy for the next 35 years or whatever.
blah.
anyway, now i'm home and don't want to go to work tomorrow either, but i don't really have to think about it for a few hours....

just a thought...

so, i used to get pretty much everything i wanted...even things like getting into the university i wanted, getting a boyfriend at just the right time, getting a house, getting a dog (these last things aren't in any particular order)...and i was just wondering, is there some quota of how many times you can have things go your way? and if so, have i reached that quota?
but then i think about it, and i did get the job that i wanted, it's just that now i'm not so sure i want it anymore...mostly because things aren't going my way. i guess i'm just a spoiled brat.
blah. i want things to make me satisfied and happy and really what i want instead of just stepping stones to other things that i want for real.