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i'm feeling somewhat anxious. i don't really know why. maybe about money. maybe it's the caffeine i had. deep breath, deep breath...everything is going to be fine. i'm going to the bank in the morning to deposit money, and i'm putting most of it in my savings account...
i think most of my anxiety is attributable to dave, who said he is cancelling a debt management payment (with the okay of the company), but that they said he doesn't have enough in his account to cover his mbna payment, and they might drop him. i think we'll be able to get it resolved, but money stuff makes me really nervous. and isn't he supposed to be getting his signing bonus check? that should put enough money in the bank to cover everything. and after all, they wouldn't be withdrawing money until the 1st since the 31st is a holiday.
okay, maybe now i feel a bit better, but i don't really think so.
i'm not sad or anything, just feeling nervous. part of it is also that i don't have to work tomorrow and i was considering driving home tonight but i'm just too tired to do that, plus i need to go to the bank in the morning. and clean out kali's litterbox.
okay, everything's going to be fine...i also wanted to go to the library. oh, maybe i'm partly freaking out because david is going to be coming back next thursday, and i need to get some stuff accomplished before then. i haven't been very good, and i need to get some business stuff taken care of. so it looks like i'm productive, and can be productive without stupid weekly meetings. i can do that, though. it's just hard to be productive and trying to start a business somewhere, when you're not sure if you're even going to be staying in that place, and not moving to pittsburgh or new mexico or something. or even just losing the house.
but this weekend i'm going to get my shit together, and clean up the house and get more organized, and make dave create a budget, and start working out again because i've been sucking about that. and i'm going to WRITE!!!!!
okay. time to do some reading before bed, and then i'll wake up early so i can get the fuck out of dodge...
i think most of my anxiety is attributable to dave, who said he is cancelling a debt management payment (with the okay of the company), but that they said he doesn't have enough in his account to cover his mbna payment, and they might drop him. i think we'll be able to get it resolved, but money stuff makes me really nervous. and isn't he supposed to be getting his signing bonus check? that should put enough money in the bank to cover everything. and after all, they wouldn't be withdrawing money until the 1st since the 31st is a holiday.
okay, maybe now i feel a bit better, but i don't really think so.
i'm not sad or anything, just feeling nervous. part of it is also that i don't have to work tomorrow and i was considering driving home tonight but i'm just too tired to do that, plus i need to go to the bank in the morning. and clean out kali's litterbox.
okay, everything's going to be fine...i also wanted to go to the library. oh, maybe i'm partly freaking out because david is going to be coming back next thursday, and i need to get some stuff accomplished before then. i haven't been very good, and i need to get some business stuff taken care of. so it looks like i'm productive, and can be productive without stupid weekly meetings. i can do that, though. it's just hard to be productive and trying to start a business somewhere, when you're not sure if you're even going to be staying in that place, and not moving to pittsburgh or new mexico or something. or even just losing the house.
but this weekend i'm going to get my shit together, and clean up the house and get more organized, and make dave create a budget, and start working out again because i've been sucking about that. and i'm going to WRITE!!!!!
okay. time to do some reading before bed, and then i'll wake up early so i can get the fuck out of dodge...
